You have died.\n\n[[I can't die.|2]]\n[[I haven't died.|2]]\n[[I never did.|2]]\n[[How did I die?|2]]
So now there's a boat. You are dead and there is a boat and you have it now. This boat is yours. It has sails and oars and a hull and a prow and portholes and a cabin and all of what boats have.\n\n[[If I have a boat then I have a costume.|boat2]]\n[[I am dressed as a captain.|boat2]]\n[[If I am dressed as a captain then I am a captain.|boat2]]\n[[Yoho.|boat2]]
There is no shore until you need a shore. If you leave the river then you will need a shore. So you leave the river and you need a shore and there is a shore. Here I am on the shore. I am your enemy here. In the river I am not your enemy. On the boat I am not your enemy. Here, on the shore that you need because you left the river and there was no shore and you needed a shore, I am your enemy, I love you. Hold this knife.\n\n[[I don't want the knife.|out2]]\n[[I don't want to be your enemy.|out2]]\n[[What I want is a beach.|out2]]\n[[I want to be a man on a beach looking out on the sea, and I am not in the sea, and I am drinking lemonade because I am alive, and the sun is the sun.|out2]]
OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO\n\n[[I AM AFRAID OF DEATH BECAUSE I AM AFRAID OF BEARS|bears2]]\n[[OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO|bears2]]\n[[WHAT IF WHEN YOU DIE IT IS LIKE BEING EATEN|bears2]]\n[[AND THEN YOU'RE IN THE BODY OF WHATE KILLED YOU|bears2]]
I'm not here.\n\n[[I'm only sleeping.|leave4]]
I'm not here.\n\n[[I'm still here.|leave3]]\n[[I'm still here.|leave3]]
I'm not here.
Your body did not love you. Your body only loved his body. His body did not love you. It only loved your body.\n\n[[My body betrayed me.|4]]\n[[His body made my body love his body.|4]]\n[[I did not love his body.|4]]\n[[I did not love my body either.|4]]
It was your body. Your body betrayed you.\n\n[[My body was good and everyone knows it was good.|3]]\n[[Please don't talk about my body.|3]]\n[[I always knew my body would betray me.|3]]
Yes. This is fine. It is fine in this white river. Here. I am here. I am with you in this river.\n\n[[We are holding hands.|6]]\n[[We have hands.|6]]\n[[These hands are not our bodies' hands.|6]]
His body never betrayed you. You are floating on a river. The river is white. Your body was a white river. You floated through your body. You left your body because it betrayed you. Now here is this river. Here you are inside this river.\n\n[[I want out of the river.|out]]\n[[I want a boat.|boat]]\n[[This is fine.|5]]
Okay.\n\nDo you love me? This is strange. We just met. You're dead. I'm dead too. This is strange. There isn't time. We are holding hands and we have hands. My body was a red river. I am in your white river because you are here in this river, this white river, here we are.\n\n[[I don't love you.|8]]\n[[I might love you.|8]]\n[[I would love you if I had the time.|8]]\n[[There isn't time.|8]]
So this is death. I'm not cold. Are you cold?\n\nNo. You aren't cold.\n\nThe river is fine.\n\n[[It's fine.|7]]\n[[It's fine.|7]]\n[[It's fine.|7]]\n[[It's fine.|7]]
Here: I wrote you a book. There isn't time to read the book. So don't read the book. But touch it for me please. This book will not betray you. You can open it so long as you don't read. Run your hands over the pages. You have hands.\n\n[[It's beautiful.|10]]\n[[It's beautiful.|10]]\n[[So beautiful.|10]]\n[[So beautiful.|10]]
I'm not here.
My knife I gave to you is in the river. There's a knife in your river.\n\n[[There's a knife in my body.|drop3]]\n[[My body is a body if it has a book inside.|drop3]]\n[[My body is a body if it has a knife inside.|drop3]]\n[[When I wake I'm going to take the book out of my body.|drop3]]
You won't wake up. You have died and you have abandoned your enemy's book. Your enemy's book was written for you and you didn't care. My knife is gone. I sharpened it for you, and you didn't care.\n\n[[I will wake up when you stop talking.|drop4]]
So I won't speak. If you don't want me to then I won't speak. If I won't speak then you won't hear me. If you don't hear me I'm not speaking. If you don't want me to then no one wants me to. We're all that anybody has.\n\n[[I'm only sleeping.|onlysleeping]]
If I am dressed as the tax man then I am the tax man. If I wear spectacles then I am blind without my spectacles. If I am blind without my spectacles then I must wear them if I mean to audit you. \n\nNow I will audit you. How much do you have?\n\n[[I have my hands, my costume, my boat.|boat3]]\n[[I have some memories that you can't have.|boat3]]\n[[And the memories are mine, so you can't have them.|boat3]]\n[[And the boat is mine, so you can take it if you dress as a thief.|boat3]]
How much money did you make last year? How much do you have now? How much money did this boat cost? And what about your costume? And what about your hands?\n\n[[Here: I have a pipe.|boat4]]\n[[I have this fishing rod.|boat4]]\n[[Now there are fish in the river.|boat4]]
Then wake up. Kiss his body. His body will never betray you. Your body will never betray you.
If you want me to leave then I'll leave. We don't have to be together anymore. You can have the river all to your self. Your river. This isn't my river and I know that. It is like your body was. Your white river body. Your body betrayed you.\n\n[[Leave.|leave]]\n[[Stay.|9]]
What are hands for in this world? There is no time for hands. If I could kiss you I would kiss you. Thank you for staying. Now that we are dead and I am dead and you are dead, there isn't time for kissing anymore. There is time for writing when you're dead. That is the only thing there's time for. There isn't time for reading. There is no time for being dead. \n\n[[I'm only sleeping.|onlysleeping]]\n
I am your enemy and so I only care what you want because I want to keep you from having it. You can't have it. You can't. I already said you were dead. The beach is not dead. You have this shore. You have that knife. (My knife.) If you want my knife then give it back. If you don't want my knife you can keep it.\n\n[[If I give the knife back you will hurt me.|out3]]\n[[I want to keep the knife so you can't hurt me.|out3]]\n[[The thing that scares me about being dead is I am sure it's going to hurt.|out3]]
Now you have feet and the feet feel the mud of the shore. Give back my knife. There are rocks between your toes. If you give me my knife I will give you this book. I wrote this book for you.\n\n[[I won't give back the knife.|out4]]\n[[I hate my feet.|out4]]\n[[My feet are my enemies.|out4]]
Here: take the book and keep my knife. I wrote this book because I knew you wouldn't want to read it. There is no time to read my book. There is only time to write my book. I wrote it because I wanted to hurt you. I gave you my knife because I thought it would hurt you.\n\nBeing dead should hurt.\n\n[[I don't want to hurt.|out5]]
Please touch the book that I wrote for you. Please fan the pages out and touch them.\n\n[[I am dropping this book in the river.|dropbook]]\n[[I am writing a book to hurt you.|out6]]
And the book is about how I am going to use this knife. \n\n[[And the book is about what I'll do with this knife.|out7]]\n[[And the book is about how I'll make you hurt with this knife.|out7]]\n[[And this book is a sleeve for your knife.|out7]]\n[[And this book is not for me and I will never read it or know what it says. This book is your death. You are dead.|out7]]
I will read your book since you were kind enough to write it. If you put my knife in your book then I will read my knife.\n\n[[That's fine.|out8]]\n[[That's all fine.|out8]]\n[[I don't care.|out8]]
I'm reading your book. I'm reading my knife.\n\n[[I'm only sleeping.|onlysleeping]]
I'm not here.\n\n[[I'm still here.|leave2]]\n[[I'm still here.|leave2]]
PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE SAVE ME PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE SAVE ME\n\n[[I'M NOT HERE.|bears4]]
OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO\n\n[[I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW|bears3]]
There's a monster at the end of this book.
If I am dressed as a bear then I am a bear.\n\n[[Put on a bear's skin. Make me run.|bears5]]
The book I wrote for you is in the river. There's a book in your river.\n\n[[There's a book in my body.|drop2]]\n[[Drop your knife in the river.|drop2]]
Mike Meginnis
I will take the sails. You will be still. You should be still. You should report no income. There should be no fish and no bears. If I am dressed as the tax man then I have a body. Here: I will take off my clothes. \n\n[[I am only sleeping.|onlysleeping]]
Here: hold this form. Hold this pen. You can have as many hands as you need.\n\n[[Now I feed you to the bears.|bears]]\n[[Now I sign this form.|boat7]]
I see the bears. Do you see my license? I am licensed to audit you. If there's a license there is government. I will report you to the feds. They won't kill you because you are dead. They will only hunt you forever.\n\n[[I'm afraid of being dead because I'm afraid it will feel like always being hunted.|boat6]]
You owe me twenty percent of your boat. I want the best percentage. Give me the sails or the cabin. Which do you like best? Here: hold this pen. Hold this form. Sign this form with this pen. There, by the X.\n\n[[My hands are all full.|boat5]]\n[[Here, take this fish.|boat5]]\n[[If there are fish then there are bears.|boat5]]\n[[If you audit me then I will feed you to the bears.|boat5]]